Timpul propriului meu EU

Am descoperit sau redescoperit recent acea apasare pe care o vedeam pe umerii parintilor mei in contextul observatiei comuniste. Si cand spun observatie ma refer cu blandete la un gest extrem de nedemocratic care presupune invadarea spatiului privat. 

Si ma mira ca traim cu impresia ca democratia inseamna si invadarea spatiului privat si credem ca devenim vedete daca suntem constant sub supraveghere. 

Am mers intr-o toamna intr-o casa in care totul era atent urmarit. Si m-a distrat fiecare privire pe care o aruncam in colturile incaperilor, in plafonul fals al vilei, in oglinzile asezate pe coridoare. M-a distrat pentru ca am stiut ca sunt nimeni si ca oamenii aceia isi pierd vremea urmarind un nimeni. Si m-am simtit un pic in siguranta cu atatea priviri asupra mea. Am avut sofer si menajera care se ocupau de tot ce ne poftea inima. Si aveam marea la o aruncatura de bat si plaja si valurile. Si nu m-am simtit amenintata, dar am decis sa merg acolo si am vrut sa experimentez senzatia. Libertatea mea de a alege sa ma arunc in aceasta experienta. Si atunci totul era justificat de o dorinta de a depasi niste limite, de a vedea cum este o astfel de casa, o curiozitate nejustificata de a testa raul inainte ca el sa devina parte din universul meu. 

Timpul pe care vreau sa il petrec cu mine si grimasele mele este un timp privat pe care nimeni nu are dreptul sa il priveasca. Acesta este parte din fiinta mea pe care decid sa o exprim in cadrul intim, privat si fara ochi straini. La fel se intampla si cu telefonul. Este un mod de comunicare, nu o unealta pentru un profil psihologic. Daca toti suntem urmariti, inseamna ca se pleaca de la premisa ca toti suntem infractori. 

Consider mai mult chiar ca imi este invadata intimitatea daca nu sunt avertizata cu privire la acest gest. 

Siguranta are niste limite. Limitele le stabilim noi, iar noi suntem suficient de maturi cat sa consideram care este acel spatiu privat de care ne priveaza ochii si urechile atintite. 

Libertatea inseamna sa poti sa te desfasori fara a lasa urme, fara a avea un impact in munca cuiva, fara a fi judecat pentru faptele tale. 

Libertatea nu inseamna constrangerea si temerea pe care o resimti atunci cand stii ca ochiul Big Brother vegheaza asupra ta. 

Big Brother nu te face vedeta ci iti invadeaza intr-un mod brutal si foarte agresiv viata privata!

Little Big

I grew up surrounded by mature people. For me they were the big people. And I wanted to be just like them. I had no idea what that meant. I just knew they knew everything, they could do anything and there was nothing scaring them. Except the regime.

A few years ago, all grown up, I was asked what I wanted to become. And the answer shook my entire ground. Now I was big, I had nothing to fear, I have done a lot, but still I felt I haven't done much. And still I was big. Somehow I felt there was a lot more to do than the standards I had before. And to think there was actually nothing to be afraid of. And my only fear was that I would not do enough.

Now, I consider I am that big person. And it all stays in a different context. I ponder now not only my doings, but the magic my friends make come true. And they touch people's lives with the things they make. And this way, my new context lies in the generation that moves this world at present times. Quite proud to brag about being big.

I have to name here my friend who works for the biggest company in the world and small as she may be, she does something that moves the world.

I have to remember, my friend who is an architect. And with her ideas she changes the world aesthetically. Proud again for such company.

I cannot forget my artistic friend, who does everything to make the world better and who raises emotion.

And another good friend who works in a place where people are boasting with pragmatism and yet she moves this company through her charm and communication.

With all these friends, I have to aim to be big. In a society which sells lack of culture as a model, I am the proud friend of such people moving world with great heritage. And I stand up straight and say hello to whomever looks down on me because my values are bigger than their pity small hearts and minds.

Writing can change the world with a good speech. A good speech can free minds. Freedom comes from value and Freedom is what gives you the power to create, to move or to change. Freedom is what makes one Big.